urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:captainmarina captainmarina captainmarina 2006-09-06T05:30:16Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:captainmarina:606 2006-09-06T05:30:16Z 2006-09-06T05:30:16Z I hate to be weak. But sometimes, things just become overwhelming. August 9th I had lost my brother. Not in death. He ran from home. I know that in 3 days time, I will not have had a converstation with him for a month. He ran away because of the mentally abusive lifestyle we live in. I miss him sooooo much that it hurts. I cry every day and just want to hold him. I want to hear him play his guitar and sing. He tought me how to play the opening theme to Silent Hill on the guitar... I try to ignore it, but memories of his face when he was 6 and seven years old keep coming to mind and I cry again. I would go and see him, but I am afraid that he wants nothing to do with me or anyone in our family...Not that I did anything to him, he's ignoring all of us and I don't know why he is doing this to me. Did I hurt him? what am I going to do?